lifting bones off of silvery flesh
skinless and slowly down my throat
and I ate it without caring for
where it came from except the price
dipped in tomato sauce
a ****** mess
I won't worry about your indifference
and I kiss you just to kiss you
and to make you feel better
with your straight face and your indifference
I can still feel your sweetness, no matter how simple
you may be, I can still feel your roughness,
no matter how complex you may be

sometimes no words are more than words
and you still took me home
you were simple, clear direct words,
I still wanted to know everything in your mind
because by then you already shut me and the world out
all to protect the energy that was no longer there
drainage sometimes means that you have to accept

shaking nose, smaller nostrils, slightly perked up
thinner bridges, and button, pixy like
angel v-shaped chin and I smile
I'm so grateful, yes, so grateful
for the placement of venus, of my veins
somewhere there is an old me


smiling cheekbones, I look different,
maybe perfect, I look different
somewhere in this mirror, I look different
and then I see me in the lake and
I look different
tingling here, respiratory, needing to
breathe it in, sickness leaves, health disperse ... goddess...

wrestling leaves on the ground grassy leaves
bruised knees bony man
and I kissed you just to kiss you
I licked your lips
sweet fruit
unripe peach
still to ripen
juicy flesh and young
fat and short
somewhere there is
frog legs hopping
and still, I continued to eat them
dipping me
tomato in me
not to make me cry
it is sweetness
it is gentle
it is a nice fruit


did you see
the tomato seeds
that I planted in your hair
in your ears
in your noses
down to your feet




vines wrap you
maybe something
else will come out of the rot
because root
violet root
violet root rot happens
to the low hangers
chili peppers and fruits
berries get it, potatoes too,
too much selenium








did you see this
I look different
did you see can you see this
to match what
you said you wanted
because who am I really
what am I?
am I acacia? am I an angel?
am I a person? I am shapeshifting
I am changing
I am always me and not me
because I look different so I can
be what you wanted
because I couldn't decide
what I wanted to be
I am changing
I look different
different from one place to another
accepting me
just for me
what is me? nowadays i don't know
and you kissed me
you still kissed me
despite knowing this
and I still sang badly into your ears
talking a lot
I look perfect can you not say that
can you at least say that in
your head I can be a beauty
because that still
matters to my young heart you know
I am sweetness
can I be, please?
let me see here, I am different
I look nice, don't you like the way I look in this dress
do you see my legs now? can you kiss them?
what about my arms? don't you see me?
aren't you happy with what I am?
can you be happy? I'm trying to make you happy here
but what about me? I am happy being for
is this me, used to being used, I am always
letting myself be used and putting myself in the ways to be used...
how can I be lovely? just to be lovely? just to be lovely for me?
I want to dance on the rock, naked, in the middle of a lake
with a waterfall splashing on me

I want to be part of nature this way,

I don't want to be judged
I want you to judge me
judge precious things about me

I'll let you watch me, just to watch me, please don't make me cry
can you watch me? can you see me? do you want to see me?
do you want to watch me? please hold me gently

watch me gently, don't let your eyes dislike what it sees
please let yourself like what it sees when it looks at me
and I'm desperate, I'm sorry i'm desperate, I'm still trying
here, I want to grow, I'm trying to sit with acacia
and she is  still breaking free from such confines

she is she is she is she is she is she is she is she is she is she is she is she is she is she is she is she is she is she is she is

acacia do you dance just to dance? please laugh just to laugh
please write just to write please draw just to draw
don't let what others say make you scared, make you shake
you are lovely, just to be lovely, don't let yourself cry
over those things, it can be simple, it can be sweetness
it's okay if they don't want to join you

you do these things and you can be acacia, you can be a pretty baby,
you can be safe, you are safety, you are a pretty baby, as cute as a button, remember hopping down those aisles, you can be now
you are imperfect, you are different, you are changing, you can kiss me, you can touch me, you are kissing just to kiss and you want to be simple and complex sweetness, attach to the water, let the waterfall come

to you privacy, privacy, you want privacy, you want privacy, sleepy private, privacy, somewhere warm, safety and privacy. oh, you're private, oh you're private privacy. read all of this.