How is it you can get to me
when I barely had you.
Scars reopened, and all I can think is
"He's still gone"

Tears are threatening to over flow
my heart is ready to burst

How do you expect me to breathe
when the only air I knew was you?
How am I supposed to smile
when you aren't there to cause it?
How do I keep from falling apart...
when you were the structure holding me together?

Do I dare say I love him?
I loved him?
no... I still do...
NO I DON'T
I can't...

How do I fix this?!!?
please.. I'm emotionally beat..
All I can do is think about you..
and I know, young love.

"you'll get over it"
will I?
How?
I need an instuction pamphlet
or a "How to get over it for dummies"
or a hug...

How could he have done this?
Snuck in my chest and tore out my smile
and my vision,
leaving me blind, cold and empty.

I left you,
I promised myself I would
to keep you safe
from this ****** up world's view.

If I left, then why does it feel like you took everything,
I just want to smile..
some nights I wish I had never met you
and never opened my heart.

Because of you,
I lock my heart up
in a cold stone box
I've soldered the edges
and built a wall of cast iron.

Now I feel myself becoming cold,
as cold as the box I locked my heart in
and I won't open it
not for anyone.

I only have one heart..
I dare not break it anymore...