pain
my focuss

happiness
drained

in my thoughts
what is real

with the devil
was there a deal

pain

happiness

i drank
to **** them away

everyday

i walked across hot coals
to see if i could feel

i did not burn

in the turn

what have i become
my only friend

happiness ends
it became a fast trend

i tried to disappear
i am still here

at my age
accepting things

is everything

in my end
will the pain bend
will happiness begin

if only i could start
again