how much i don't want to be here right now
because i have such a love for life.
but i don't want to skip ahead.
I don't want to skip the chapters
I want to read the whole book.
The downs are the lessons during the ups, the healing,
during the growth, during the glow.
i will despise the now, but it's all i have.
Regardless of where I am and who I want to be,
you can't go back or to the future.
I can't have my future that I long for without the now.