There are no words for this It's not a simple emotion Such as sadness It is deep, complicated, manipulating They call it depression But that is just a name It is Hands hidden deep in sleeves Dark circles accompanying dull eyes Cold sweats Twisted sheets Nights haunted by vivid dreams But mostly It is a heavy heavy weight Sitting on my shoulders Making it hard to move, think, speak When all that occupies my mind Is the burden And how it dulls my every sense And instinct to keep living