there is cotton in my mouth. my fingers become tweezers, plucking, yanking, culling; but there is still cotton in my mouth.
it reminds me of the time the spooky man from the shadows called me sugar and then called me over like I was a cheap doxy. avoiding him was obvious, but then dodging him became obvious and the moment I felt ***** hands brush my left hip, I knew I wasn’t safe anymore.
there was cotton in my mouth. fragile like a pretty doe with a wounded hind leg, I could not scream or attack; for there was jelly in my bones too.
but tonight, there is cotton in my mouth, again, for different reasons; though, the same. fear. and while there is no bête noire with a knife clutching onto my left hip, calling me sugar; there is this certain bête noire I had neglected, to discover radiant lights dancing above and rich, resplendent tickles and tingles coming through my heartbeats.
I found a black spot; a hole or tear; rip in the curtain; stain on the carpet. a darkness, a moon gone missing; a reversion to autopilot; comatose, asleep.
there is cotton in my mouth and my fingers still cull the plush barrier; but it grows like a monster and I have nothing more to say anyway.