Focused on his blessings tired of taking on people that wasted his time. They didn't help him and he didn't owe them anything. He put his life in hold so many distractions doing things that he didn't have to do. He thought it matter turns out it wasn't him and it didn't do him any favors.
Happy for others when he made moves, or planned things no one got behind him. He was always supportive but when he had ideas they'd be shut down told he was crazy making what he wanted seem pointless like a waste of time.
He was always determined at work but thought use that energy to finish school. He wanted to learn and apply it. Always writing made him happy he got lost in it. Staying positive creating wanting to publish his work. Shared many thoughts ideas.
Started to draw using colors and paint another way to get out all the stuff within instead of being self destructive. Like a bomb ready to explode imploding within. Trying to do what's right not take anything personal.