making yourself the victim all the time gets really old and I know you're not one to take any suggestion you're told because if **** got better you can't place blame in every direction except the one that it came and baby that source is right back to you I've got, the world's got, we've all got trauma too but I don't use it for reasons to treat you like **** all I was ever looking for was a genuine apology and I never got it and I know deep down you might want to get better but you want to take the easiest way there isn't a pill to take away trauma you haven't faced you're all over the ******* place... and I'll be able to sleep at night, just maybe not that soon breathing got easier without you ******* it all out of the room but I don't like to live a life with regrets, I loved you with all of me, and I can't change it I stood with my arms open to you ready to do the work but I can't tell you the view will be beautiful at the top if you're going to sit at the bottom in the dirt which is where you always liked it manipulation and mental gymnastics shattered my rose colored glasses