Beauty wraps around my fingers Guilt- the strings that attach Sorrow is the master Moving me with its strong ways And I am the puppet Writing a poem of sorrow
My soul spills Water drenching my hair Disgusting colors Twist and swirl Flowing down the drain Hunched over the taste stings my mouth Dull aches along my thighs Sin after sin paint my body A vessel- holding my poison soul
I am decaying like earth Dying slowly with time I wither away and crumble beneath The touch of those who are growing Glow with light I am burned by your bright But the darkness will swallow And I've learned it bites
So here I sit My soul leaking through with my fluids Whether be crimson sought aches Or the waste that flows through the drain My being is an existence that is too strong to contain
Living may be pain But leave I cannot These flowers need the presence Of my so-called divinity But refuse to reward me with relief
I am suffering from an incurable illness no amount of medication makes it better and yet they tell me I'll live as long as I don't go mad