I am not gifted I am a gift to you I am your child And I always knew it was your job To keep me healthy Maybe that's why I cried so much and cry so much to this day I did not ask to be born I did not ask to be perfect But you asked that of me How the **** can a Mother Joke of locking their child in a closet To starve them for their weight
Gifted child Gifted child I wish you saw me as a gift Instead of gifted Instead of expecting the most While creating the least Out of me
I thought my first heartbreak Would be from a friend Perhaps a partner But I soon realized It was a process That had already started There was no specific day I realized That I couldn't feel your love And only now At 21 do I realize How badly I wanted to my whole life
You gave birth to someone with many weaknesses Similar to the ones within yourself But you can't stand seeing them In anyone
I don't know if I've forgiven you But I don't think I hate you I just wish that the seed we planted Grew
I was young, incapable I didn't know how to take care of it But neither did you And by the time we found out
The seed was rotten.
Sorry if this is spaced weird or hard to read. I like the way that I space my writing, and this is a very personal piece, but I understand if you don't like it because of that. Please don't be too mean about it (: I'm not looking for criticism on this one unless you see a typo or something.