I’ve been in the mental health service from the age of 12! I taught myself to grow up at the age of 13, from the age of 13 I started sh I was admitted in hospital for the very first time at the age of 13, after been abused verbally and physically and sexually, a few years go by and at the age of 17 I was sexually assaulted that too my innocents, at the age of 18 I was sa again, at the age of 19 I was admitted into hospital like 7 times in a year at the age of 20 I was in hospital for 2 weeks with security and nurses having to stand at the edge of my bed because I attempted to run away, at the age of 21 I was back in hospital for 3 weeks and I was homeless at that time, now thinking back from the age of 13 till the age of 21 I was in and out of hospital therapy all because of one person that one person that stole my childhood and I still managed to go home every time with the doctors knowing that when they see me next week my story didn’t change I just added more stuff on, I was never able to tell anyone about the abuse I was going through because I was trapped so I tired everything I could to try stop thinking about it, this one time when I was in hospital I really didn’t want to live and the nurse left a pen on the table next to me so I took it went to the bathroom and started sh the nurse asked me to open the door and I didn’t do they came in and from then I wasn’t aloud to go anywhere without someone next to me as much as I hated what they were doing and they were trying to keep me alive and all I was thinking was why me why am I worth living when every night I go through so much abuse, but today I’m so glad to stay I’ve left that part of chapter behind me now i see that keep all the hate and anger you built up throughout the years didn’t do you any good, I’m proud to say I’m 3 months completely clean and I haven’t thought about touching anything sharp, I’m so proud of myself and who I have become as a person as a friend I feel new