She would bark at me when wanting love.
I would come close she would run away.
the nature of us all, sometimes she'd try biting me.
Fight or flight, i looked to calm, yet no way around another's fear
(the opposite of love)
but maybe through it?
I figured to bond, she saw what I saw as her potential,
She fought for the attention that was accepted from another (that acceptance key to a heaven indeed). Attacking her brother, her eyes said, "was i right ? was i wrong? Should i try another?".
Trying to show you its acceptable to be on her level.
"Sure ill come" i said with poised humility,
Because i still loved you the same, always as equals. again
Id come, youd run, id throw you a bone,
I had loved to see you as you had grown, love not lacked, brought it back(look she knew how to do that!), pride's layers overlapped of every sense of touch, god I loved that, as I pet your hair back.
Never expressed how much i was impressed,
But still then after, id love in my way to show you it made my day, you would run.
you wanted to still be in my focus, for i think it made you stronger, you were the enemy, reflected that hurt me as I'd hurt another.
i had made a vow to never try to harm another.
Our possible deeds natured in weeds. Possible age of love to still be seen. And when you fought me itd hurt me, and id leave in defeat; you, barking behind me. And maybe one day you wont see me the monster you see me. Maybe one day we could love so freely. But for now it seems we both are on matural's leave.
I just wish i could communicate for you to comprehend, and im sorry my heart feels too heavy for anything to rend.