I wish people would more often discuss the period of mourning that comes along with missing someone who is still on this earth.

When you are practically inseparable from someone for ten years of your life,

only to have them disappear one day with no explanation,

It feels the same as them leaving this world forever.

Because when someone leaves this world permanently,

The waves of pain,
and sorrow,
and anger,
and tears,

and begging and pleading and negotiating and bargaining that you go through,

Are a result of knowing that you will NEVER be able to see or speak to,

or touch them

Again.

So why isn’t there the same level of understanding for the grief that comes with someone leaving your personal world,

when you know the sudden, permanent lack of communication and physicality,

are the same?