i know im not actually a burden but - do you hate me? am I annoying? do you want me to shut up? i know its just my head being mean but - you deserve better than me, you dont deserve this mess. i know i can get better but - i dont deserve help, I'm only going to get worse. I know I should be medicated but - i dont have the money, and do I really deserve it? I know I could just escape the void, but - it calls my name, it beckons me. I know maybe people do care, but - maybe I'll really do it.