Hi my name is Brian Allan
I have a problem
Which is
It is a simple fact that
I have a hard time saying no
It started when I was a kid
A ******* asked me for my lunch
And me being too afraid to say no
Just gave it to him
Maybe I was scared
Or maybe it was a problem I had
Then when I entered Canberra
I was being bugged into giving
People money and if I didn’t
They say they won’t be my friend
Also someone gave me a fruit box
They said drink it
I did and they laughed
Because they said I drank *****
I was worried but I didn’t know how
To stand up to them
Despite my father and brother showing me
Then I wanted to do things
Like play sport hiking in the bush
Social interactions with my peers
I joined RAiD basketball and AMF bowling
The d of e award scheme
Go to the mall to eat donuts
And drink coke etc
I ignored the people asking for money
But after school it all happened again
I was being forced to throw
Beer cans on the Catholic school roof
I was going out after I finished watching nightly television to the nite clubs
And the girls wanted me to dance with them
One guy asked me to duck his *****
And my voices said
Was it nice
I was ever so upset that I didn’t
Speak up for myself I followed
Him to the mall
I was constantly losing and gaining weight
But I rejoined bowling
And I was being forced to play with a Down syndrome girl
But she was nice
Better than being an old fogie
And away from my old crow carers
Who were telling me I was wrong
Saying I am too stupid to do what
I wanted to do
Even my local dentist tried to teach me
Right from wrong
With COKE
People were teasing me on the street
Bothering me for money
And pushing me to believe in Jesus
That was a hard thing to say no to
Because my mum was a believer
And I had another carer who
Was a Christian and had his own
Beliefs and he made me feel
All my beliefs were wrong
I was always saying to him
I am a Buddhist I believe in reincarnation
And then another carer came
And tried to get mr back
Into believing what I did
I told him
I am a Buddhist and I believe in reincarnation
I WENT CRAZY!!!!!
I wanted to get people to respect
Me on my beliefs
Problem is I was still dropping
And putting on weight
And I was forced to join
Define fitness
Where I had a trainer
Who was forcing me to
Eat foods I didn’t like
Do things I didn’t want to do
Go out and be the adult I didn’t want
To be
There were some good points
But the point is
I was too afraid to stand up to him
If I stood up to people in my life
I would have been a normal person
Now I want to do things my way
Even if I tried to speak up for me
Yo mum and dad but the wrong
Way
I just can’t say NO to people
I wish I could