Mentally ill 
decisions made 
based on 
the sickness
Well now 
I feel healed 
but left to 
endure the pain
Because decisions 
were made 
that cant be 
taken back 
Selfish was I 
for taking to long 
to finally get help 
Selfless i was 
when I realized 
just how ill 
I really was 
to make decisions 
but that was then 
this is now 
Im way better 
but stuck with 
the aftermath 
If i could go back 
if i could rewrite 
the past pages 
knowing then 
what I know now 
I promise, 
I would've 
NEVER GAVE UP 
On you, on them, on us 
ON MYSELF 
These thoughts 
cost myself 
wet cheeks,
heartache,
mental pain 
STRAIN 
Ashamed 
sums it all up 
regardless the growth 
regardless the change 
There's one thing certain 
Ill never live down 
the endless pain 
SUFFERING