In some ways, I am quite certain
That I am one of the only ones
who feels this way....

A degree to my name, a certification
That I have paid my dues in the
system of education

According to this piece of paper,
In reference to the past four years
I have fulfilled all requirements
for an undergraduate degree
I am done
There are no more exams I am required to take
No more classes recommended for my
area of study

I am free
I have completed my education
Society has congratulated me, and
is ready to welcome me
In the workplace
In the field of "my" choosing

According to everyone else, I should be thrilled
I am not required to ever return to academia
Most in my position are relieved that it is over

....but not me

I see students
Backpacks filled with laptops and textbooks
Some walking alone, some with others
Some have just begun their journey
Some are nearly finished
The rest are thrown in the middle
Lost but searching
Be it for an answer for their course
Or an answer for their time, their days....

I have nothing but jealousy towards
My friends, whose days will be filled with
Courses
Exams
Textbooks
Notebooks
And all that classes demand of them

I wish so desperately to return
But for the same area of study as my bachelor's degree?

I feel lost
A lost that will lead me to the correct path, with time I know
But is it normal to feel this way?

All I know is how to be a student
And I quite vigorously threw myself into this profession
And I have succeeded....

....but must it end?

May I return to my education, my dream that I so desperately miss?