i'll never let you see what you've done to me i'll never let you know where i'm planning to go except after i'm gone you'll all be too late. to say if i could just have wait. wait for what? for me to slice another cut? then you run, tp say what i have done for you to feel like you have won. won the battle between me and my life with you not even involved but there i go again slaying against my wrist is the knife and sitting there as i tear tear off the plastic uncap the lid discover whats been hid a capsule of blue multiple and brand new taste the bottle on my lips not even the razor's nips could substitute what i will soon endure a pain free path for sure but the only way to get there? step in the puddle of blood there's no lack of it, it's a flood a flood of my own nothing i have ever shown as the ultimate sacrifice, i just want to say, maybe there would have been one day when someone would have finally said "the things inside your head are driving insane and its leading you to a world of pain. take my hand, and follow my lead someplace to where you will not need the use or crave for blades & pills because my love & caring will end your desire to ****." but that is all a tale it is all in my head that someone will have said "i will save you." and now its too late because i will reach for the razors as my evening date and later lose my innocence deep into the dark as it is late my innocence taken by the one and only multiple swallowed capsules as i say one last time, "if i wasn't so lonely" then everyone wouldn't say, 'why?" and i didnt have to write, "goodbye."