disheartening words left thoughtlessly in ears
i ripped open my chest where my heart
combats years
of sickening beats, craving something to love
you bared me to you
                                            and i wasn't enough

looked downward and careless
i now see i'm played
like strings long forgotten--your absence bandaid

using me should lose me but i'm weaker than that
for any taste of you
in any given act
                                     i cave to
                                                                   i crave you
lost clarity, turned dark

stop breathing me to life
with your heartless, cold remarks.