I have squandered my soul again I yearned for a tourniquet; clutched my aching limbs as I bled out onto the floor, onto myself
I’ve stolen fleeting things, beget to me, lost to time I have been conditioned to rot; to survey eternity from behind the gate of the mind
I keep tricking myself Surreptitious riddles, ghost of night Resuscitating nothingness regurgitating, heaving death
I keep deepening my desire to die But I don't want to dissolve, I want metamorphosis; reintegration with the tapestry; to begin dreaming, as an artist, and paint my blood onto the canvas of the universe
My spirit leaves me in unsanctimonious wanderings; each time I flitter between love and loss and longing
I would only ask: let me cling to nothing, understand without being crushed; allow me relinquishment Forgive me