i tried to put on paper the way you make me feel blotted onto a back lit screen and on the pages littering the corners of my room
i tried to make sense of weighted absence in my bed still sunlight, stripping my sheets, golden as your hair in the morning
i tried these things and many, my methodical, logical mind turning circles over and around the shape of your body and the walls of your mind bouncing over the articulation of your voice still resonating on the walls of my room
and i came to a comfortably uncomfortable denouement that liking you was absent of reason, conclusion, solution, no resolution adequate for the disgruntled mathematician hired for the rationalization of my brain
how insane
so i'll remain
infatuated with the colors in your eyes and the dull thud of your feet on the earth no attachment to acumen, let my hand off the rip cord and trust that the fall and the pain it may bring