You always wanted me to be honest
to tell you things
to talk about myself

You wanted us to be more close
You let me know that this was a safe place
that I could be me

Be me around you
Be me around others

But I hid myself for a year
A whole year fearing to tell you the reality
The reality of who I am
of who I like or love

And when I finally had the courage to tell you
When I opened myself to you

You stepped away
And left me here with my arms opened
waiting for a hug

I just wanted a mom hug
in which you told me with your physical touch
that everything was going to be okay

That you were happy for me
and that you still loved me as much,
that nothing had changed between us

I guess it wasn't a safe place when it comes to us
it only applies when talking about others

I still love you mom
And I hope you love me as well
Not for who I was
but for who I am