Why do I do this?
Why do I drop everything for you?
Every time I get hurt.
And even now I feel so numb and sad-
and we’re not even dating.
I’m so loyal to someone who is using me.
You don’t even want me.
And I’m saying this-
But the moment you call,
I’ll come running back.
Because I’m weak and I know-
I know you have some good in you.
You’re not an awful person-
Or wait.
Am I gaslighting myself?
Am I making excuses for you again?
****.
Am I dumb? Am I blind?
You haven’t really changed have you?
But I love you.
And it hurts me.
****, I love you.
Why don’t you love me?