i thought it was real

because the sight of you
it makes me want to scream

i’d douse myself in gasoline
ignite into flames
if it would mean

i’d see you reach out
once more
and help me

my love
i thought it was real

but it was just too good to be true
i’m over it
but my stomach fills with
stones
and rocks
and pebbles

i want to *****
and bleed out
at the sight of you

because you lied to me