Why do we have to argue all the time?
Why do I have to worry about you?
Why do you stay out all the time
And come back home the next morning?

I have given you all of me
To love and feel my magic
See that it’s me that continues
To stand by your side,
Give you my time
Allow you to see
That I’m down
With loving you
Wanting you
To grow vigorously

But you keep smashing
My heart into slashed dreams
You won’t listen to me
When I only want
The best for you
You don’t stop
To consider my feelings
When you go out
And cheat on me
And when I confront you
About it, you put on
A false front and make
It seem like it’s me
Who is losing it

I don’t know
How we can go on
If you keep deceiving me
If you keep playing games with me
Showboating around your friends
Convincing everyone
That we got it altogether
My love, we are hardly there
If you can’t feel remorse
About the way you
Have wronged me

I want to believe
We can work through
Our problems
That all doesn’t
Need to be withdrawn
If we can perceive
The promising moments dawning
I’m struggling surpassingly
To keep it together
Staying whole-souled to you
While raising our children
Shielding them from
Grownup conversations
From the times
When we are constantly quarreling
To the minutes when
You pound the pavement
And I’m left wailing

Then I’m achingly
Wanting you to come
Back to me so we can
Find a solution to our issues
I know that I can’t keep
Doing the same thing
Again and again
It’s draining me
On the inside

I need self-composedness
A sense of balance
I’m convinced that I need
Time away from you
To see if this is where
I sincerely belong
Or if its time for me
To say my goodbyes to you
And count my wins and losses
Be thankful for times we had
But recognize that you
Will never change
You will continue to
Be the same scheming being
With no compassionateness whatsoever