I just wish I could break down,
let it all out, finally be found.
I'm tired of hiding from what hurts;
either way, I still feel like dirt.
I hate the fact that I can't cry.
Day by day I'll sit and try.
But it's all somewhere inside,
refusing to come out, choosing to hide.
If I could only show my true feelings,
my head might stop its constant drilling.
How great it would be to relax,
look forward to the future and forget about the past.
When will it happen? I don't know,
but I'm ready for this moment, let the pain show.
How much is it going to take
for me to finally give in and let my wall break.
One day I'll look up and stare at the sky
and fully break down, finally feel myself cry.