It still startles me
To have an enemy who hates
So completely.
You start to drift back to where you could be
Should be
Want to be
Are loved
Are accepted
And this enemy takes over
Because he knows that if you overcome
You will challenge him to the fullest.
He hates you
And he should
He should fear you
Hate you
He wants you dead
Absolute
Unconditional
Unending
Hate.
He wants you to feel cold
To feel alone
To feel hated.
He makes you run as far as you can
From love
And into his hateful arms.
Because your pain
Is his only true joy.