this urge comes across me
to let some of myself out
with the knife
just on my arm
no one would notice
and my heart beats faster
and tears won't stop coming out
because even earlier
when the world was sunny
and somehow i had a smile on my face
and i was sunny inside
i walked across this bridge
the train tracks below
and saw my body falling
from way up high
down onto the hot tracks
gone
and now
my arm tingles and my minds sets low
with the intention to relieve it
because the truth is that anyone would agree I should
I don't know what's happening
or what I'm struggling with
I'm a monster who deserves this
and this is to make it up to you