I pause
At a thought...
If any of Them, knew,..
Knows... The brutal entirety
Of this hollow chested,
Crushing weightless
Vertigo into falling
Feeling.  
The Caught breath... Again?
Eyes trying, failing,
Crying place I am in?

Would they search or call out
Or worry?  Would they know where to look?
This is my fault...

I think to myself...