I have been called many names
That have challenged my sexuality
Created complex streams of deadened
Dreams that felt like I was continuously
Sinking in the most profound, trackless seas
Where no one couldn’t pinpoint me

I have heard the foul, tasteless diction
Like a ******, freak, and punk
That churns tremendously inside my mouth
That violently burns my overdone tongue
Numbs the frontal, stuns me like a skyrocketing bomb
Leaves starry scars that won’t ever go away

I have been named a gay rainbow
Someone who will never flow
With the rhythm of the soul that grows
Greatly in a traditional society
A world where the norm deforms
The undesirables, the rejects
The great unwashed beings
That love their own ***

I can’t apologize for the person
I am becoming, the homosexual soul
That streams symmetrically with seemly men
Unrelenting, robust muscle that moves me
More than the feminine frame, dazzling
Distinguishing characteristics within
A solidly built man that makes me
Fantasize about multifarious dimensions
Where they gleam so supreme
Like an eminent kingdom

I have tried to adore the womanly
World before, attempting to feel
Beyond the borders of euphoria
Monumental towers where I could
Smell their perfumed power
And drift inside the fantabulous fountains
Of their stunningly sweet minds and physiques

But the love I thought I had for them
Was something less than valid
From their point of view
When I believed in loving
A knockout woman, I discovered
The greatest rejection that became
A lifelong lesson to my presence

I can’t go there anymore
I choose for my mind to be soothed
By glorious and notorious men
Make believing beyond what is tangible
And intangible, filling my mental
With full-hearted sentiments
With out of the ordinary poetry
Submerged in exhilarating gayness
Infinitely creating enchantment
As a seamless swan that travels
On to greater endeavors