And there is nothing between us
that isnt shared with the masses.
Nohing that is only ours,
that has no strings attached
for you always play for yourself.
This isnt a team
its a dream
that I would find someone
who loves me
despite what I had
despite what materials
I could and would give
just to see you smile.
But I deserve  
a fair exchange
of effort, commitment,
and time.
It scares me that I'm
the only one trying and crying
over you.