I'm convinced that I needed you
To find myself, again
You offered me a doorway
Back into my own head.
It could have been anyone
You are unimportant
In the scheme of things
I'm in love with the drama and the dreaming,
Not the man.
It would hurt you to know this
What happened between us
was exactly what it was, for you.
Not the aftermath
The cleaving to a dream.
I'm sorry.
I used you.
Would it help to know
That I was clueless at the time?
I believed myself helpless
Even as a little part of me stood aside
Detached from every feeling
And rejoiced in what this meant for me
Awakening
Rebirth.