sometimes i want to open up to you. slice through my bruising flesh, to reveal to you what words could never say. i trust you like that. to see how my ribs cage fragments of a broken heart, and how my lungs are black from second hand smoke. i want you to dig in, and pull out all the things i’ve always questioned. til the only thing left is a hollowed out hole. maybe that way i can really feel nothing, instead of saying i don’t to avoid the conversation. i want you to drain me of my blood. like the vampires in movies i watched as a child. so i don’t have to feel it pumping through my veins, every time i feel the urge to open myself up and search deep, deep, deep, for a reason to feel nothing instead of feeling everything all at once.