When we split up, I was still spinning
In darkened firmaments, losing my senses
My breath disgusting, erupting diction
On the horizon, drunken, desireless vowels
Sliding on my mouth, scattered scars across my heart
My hair unkempt, plunged conjunctions clinging
To the stained strains, my splintered soul
Saddened in silence, trying to come back to reality

I stood outside staring at the ground
As it lost its liveliness, confined consonants
Trapped in the smoky grey clouds, tarnished
Thoughts I harbored about love, wishing
I could understand you better so I may
Conclude knowing how to love you
How to infuse all my compassionate words
In your heart to let you see I loved you
But the more I tried to break through your
Shadowed walls, you pushed me further away
Into shredded depths, never ascertaining
why you wouldn’t let me be your love language

I had to watch you run away from me
Leaving my eyes blind, my mind unaligned
With my being, steady sobbing, my thoughts
Crammed, rammed, slammed shut with no luck
Ruptured words awash in dangerously disturbed seas
Sharing in my misery, wishing there was more they
Could do for me to ease the discomfort streaming
Deeply in my sunken ship, still they bring me
Enough love to assure me they will never leave me
Reminding me that as much as I wanted that love
I was better off without them; they could never love me
The way the dark-blue and boundless seas do