Laying in bed next to who I love, Crying covering my mouth and nose so he can not hear the sniffles. I don’t want to wake him up to not be able to explain why I am not okay. I also do not want to just cry alone in a different room so I lay there and just try to make sure you do not wake up from my tears. I feel even worst that you woke up for nothing. I might want to be held and be told everything is okay. Even though that is a lie and things won’t get easier sometimes its nice to hear. I’m very overly emotional and It’s hard to contain. I hate trying to stay silent when I’m breaking down but its easier then admitting I don’t know why I’m crying. It is a lot easier then saying my mind has made sure I do not stop crying. I feel like I look like I’m bugging for attention and That’s not it. I just need someone there who is strong enough to just be there and not know with me sometimes.