You will never know
How even as I write back
The simple truth of it
Via that message I am telling lies
You will only read how I'm doing
I write I'm fine, doing well
Through fresh tears still drying
I'm often lost in myself
Caught in endless decline
Spiralling to a place of mine
Longing for help without asking
Reaching out too difficult
You will never know
I use my phone to hide from you
To block the from view my hell
Ashamed of these moments
Residing in self loathing and woes
How terrible and egocentric
The real Me becomes alone
But I hope you know
How thankful I am for you
For asking about me, my feelings
I want you to know I love you
For trying and making me smile
Thank You.  

Thank You.