i will never to admit to anyone how my loneliness has bred desperation within me,

desperate to be in love,
desperate to be held,
desperate to be someone's first choice,
desperate to be someone's whole world.

i cannot even bare to look at couples nor friends
where they are laughing and holding one another,
as this forever growing envy and jealously runs through me veins,
constantly reminding me of my loneliness.

desperate, so ******* desperate to be loved.