the power to manifest
has really messed
with my ability
to trust myself
like is this a game
was that a test
or am i reading too deep
like an idiot
are you really real
or are you just the best
thing my brain could muster up
in a fit of rest
do i want too much
or am i trying too hard
what do i deserve
or am i already too scarred
i'm trying to do what's right
and become what's good
even though that's hard
and i'm too good
at pretending ****'s fine
when it's absolutely not
just three of us in this room
my regrets my hope and my thoughts