to be honest i never knew how to write about a boy i'd never met and i also didn't know how to write about meetings and i didn't know how to write about boys but i remember seventeen years ago today, in a past i wasn't a part of and that i could never imagine, a boy I'd never met was born
but he grew up and up and up and his sandpaper heart was replaced by pints of lukewarm whiskey in the red cup left on the steps that morning and his threaded thoughts pieced together not-so-carefully were replaced by cigarette smoke lingering around his mind and out of his nose like smoke creeping through a burning building with no hope of escape for the one that broke in just to leave the gasoline by the furnace and his twisted insides were replaced by infinite spacetime and universes, bending and breaking and breathing stardust and misplaced trust and alcoholic aftertaste and burning paper
to be honest i never knew how to write about a boy who was replaced by cigarettes and whiskey and outer space and music and reasoning and tshirts and sarcasm and modernity but i did know how to write about someone who mattered and i did know how to write about being entirely made of little something elses and being replaced and he knew how to be the muse