I still daydream
especially on those days
like the time we first met after almost two years
like the time we spent sharing what we feel
like the time we spent competing and arguing
like the those times we spent together

And it haunts me
everytime when I think about
all the plans that we didn't do
all the promises I wasn't able to keep
all the hugs and kisses I didn't give
all the things I wasn't able to do, for you

I dream of them
And some of them gave me nightmares
It is painful
So much
That I'm craving for it
Either those things to happen again
Or
For this pain to get worse and worse
Until there is really nothing left of me