Some of us are motivated by love.  Some are motivated by money.   Some by family/friends.

I am motivated by fear.

By my fear of losing it.  I mean, REALLY losing it.  

Losing what?


MY MIND.

When life  becomes difficult and I feel stress.   I get headaches, or a lack of sleep .

My fear is losing my sanity.  

I worry I will make decisions that will cause others to take away my freedom.  

My freedom of movement.   My ability to come and go at will.    

I value my ability to 'get up and leave' when I feel the need.

My biggest fear in life is becoming so irrational as a result of high stress and then not being able to deal with everyday things.  

Insanity.

And being placed somewhere where others control me and not ME controlling me.

Many decisions I make in my daily life reflect my need to avoid any possibility of this happening to me.

I try to not think about this every day but its always in the back of my mind.