The love of my life
the one that
forced me to
open my eyes
Allowing myself
to see
allowing myself
to believe
Has been gone
for quite sometime
but I can’t
get her
off my mind
I ******* miss her
and can’t turn off
the love she created
within my soul
by being herself
She’s an Angel
she’s my Angel
but these demons
refused to let
our love survive
With time
we grew
further and further
apart until the flame
was entirely lost
her name
I called
her love
I screamed for
I remained
far down below
all that made sense
lifting myself up
with the overflowing tears
Just as I
quit feeling sorry
for myself
is when I truly
began to bleed
knowing the love
I had thrown away
knowing the woman
I unintentionally discarded
Well she reached out to me
it turns out she still loves me
It turns out, she knows the pain
I endured, the trauma
I was forced to be one with
She wants to be
back in my arms
but the damage
has been done
her oldest son
refuses to allow
us to get back together
and makes threats to her
that he will never ever
speak to her again
if she gets
back with me
BITTERSWEET
I love her to much
to put her in
that situation
To know, she wants me
and I want her too
to know we want to meet
but I refuse to go
knowing it would
just make things worse
until she can
figure out
how to make it work
forever and not just
right now
until we both know
how to make it work
in a way that can last
FOREVER
Then I refuse to
get thrown back in
I miss her more
than words can express
She is my forever
but right now
it seems like
she is my never
But I refuse
to lose her again
Until she can be mine
for sure
then I cannot
be hers at all
I’m sorry
Jen