I’ve wanted to hide all day
Run away from emotion
I thought about his arms
How they hold me down
Or hold me up
Both are what I need
Surrounding me
Yet, they are for another
Only mine for a time
Then I thought of a laugh
Belonging to someone
Who was equal parts funny and sad
Made me want to bring him
To hide with me
So I could help him heal
Later I read something
Made me think of what if’s
How I was lucky
Though I didn’t think so
At the time
For revelations hold truth
And there was only empty
Behind the fancy wrapped words
Then I thought of all the ones
Who are mine but not
That gave glimpses
And then removed
I sigh at those thoughts
This is what I want to hide from
The emotion
The pain
The yearning
And the thoughts