i will no longer allow myself to lose my soul in attempts of assisting you in finding what i've been made to believe is your sanity i've spent too many nights racing through your mental labyrinth only to turn around and realize you were never running beside me the second i stepped foot into your maze you locked the door behind me and you had already obtained everything you could have ever desired and more you watched me sprint suicides in circles my attempts to mend every crack in your walls using only the select parts of me you craved, relied on, and would accept you guilted and intoxicated me every time i tried to say no to you you exploited me and my entire body for your entertainment and your pleasure then boasted and smirked over all the pain you inflicted on me with a whole world i once knew knowing i could never return the same without the reminder of everything that you did to me no matter how much you clawed out of me i was never enough in your eyes months later, i still think i may have left a piece of my being in there after needing to use my own bones, the last piece of myself i clung to in there, as a ladder to finally get out of there and rescue myself i had to save what i had left for my survival and if you ever truly loved me the way you said you did i hope you can understand
after everything you put me through i still hear your voice in the back of my mind every night telling me "everything i did was because of you"