feel like sometimes
you forget just how soft i am
you smush me
without knowing you can
apologize but it's too late
the mess is already made
didn't plan on crying today
you just remind me of how much has changed

maybe it's cause i'm emotional
reliving it all cause of a joke
you forgot but how could i
you just thinking out loud but i took notes
the worst part i think
is that you're still nice to me
so sorry for everything
that should make me happy

but at least if you were an ***
i wouldn't wish things were different
spending months of denial
it's pitiful to admit it
you're still everything i want
after all is said and done
maybe you could've been the one
failing to be numb

to the impulse to seek you out
cause i know it keeps me stuck
in this place where i can't love you
but refuse to give it up
i know ive exhausted every option
our combination is just too toxic
i turn away cause i can't watch this
i knew it but i didn't stop it

so it's my fault that my hearts broken
you try to catch all the pieces
say you wish that you could fix it all
stop being so kind it's my weakness
you're my last thought at night
only one that ever apologized
there's no way to make this right
why do you have to be so ******* nice