Here I find myself again scribbling the thoughts within my head spewing words so I can breathe to aliviate the strain on my throat from swallowing screams whole
Again I'm imprisoned in me, in someone else In everyone Everywhere
I forgot how to be
I just function by automation alone a glitched, bugged program barely justifying its reason to exist holding tight to the line of code for my sanity I've been written, programmed, conditioned by others
For others
And what about me? Where did I put myself? Left last to not annoy with my problems procrastinating on my own well being
Where am I?
At the bottom of the ***** laundry I failed to take to the basket Under the bed I neglected to sleep on while insomnia payed a much anticipated visit Stuck on the sides of the bowl of soup I didn't have the appetite to eat In the last place I'd look because I'm so sure that's not where I left it
Yet here I find myself again Broken Lost Distracted by the mere thought of living one more day A day I will not focus on, as I waste away