Dear Alcohol,

You were there for every fall, since the day I turned 21
You have always been some1
I truly could count on
When others let me down
Or truly just didn’t care
You were just a call away
No matter the time or day
Wether a bad memory from
my childhood past
Or an argument with my
current or last love
Whenever they didn’t
see eye to eye with me
You always had my back
Helping me to dilute the pain
Of suppressed feelings of
thinking I was unwanted
You have matched ounce for ounce every single tear over the years, I have ever poured out
You have never judged nor have you ever turned your back
You accept me for me regardless my past
So for that reason you have always been in season
You have been a crutch I’ve felt I needed throughout this journey called life
This breaks my heart to say this
but I only want what is best for myself, call me selfish but I can’t keep remaining your
ACQUAINTANCE
The truth is you’re just not any GOOD FOR ME , but that doesn’t mean I hate you
Nor do I blame you
For I am an adult and have always had a choice
It turns out all the relief you have provided, I now see as I get older is only a temporarily band-aid and I want the relief that will last a LIFETIME
Not just a quick fix that in time leaves me more broken
So for this reason I realize
that it is you that MUST GO
This isn’t just an idea that I’ll change my mind on
Nor is this a part-time feeling
but rather a quick, precise and firm decision to cut you totally
OFF, We can’t even visit
even if just for a minute because we both know that’ll lead to hours and within a day or night I’ll relapse back to the stage of an unhealthy version of myself , I hope you can forgive me but if not
I totally understand and realize you are entitled to your opinion but I know in my heart
I MUST MOVE ON !

Sincerely ,
Robert  J Grove