I'm always searching for peace Some sort of resolve to chapters That never received a clear cut ending Trying to finish writing a story that I didn't start Viscously attempting to make sense of it all Filling in the blanks with timid words Guessing at how it was supposed to end
I want to be angry I want to leave everyone behind Go where no one knows my name Where guilt and shame aren't forced on me Find myself and move on like everyone else gets to do I wonder what it's like to be able to breathe To break apart from your past self To find inner peace
I wonder what it's like to be loved by someone With their whole heart To be their first choice I wonder what that looks like To be loved with no expectations Trusting someone so deeply I wonder what it feels like to be held By someone who could never imagine Letting you get away I wonder a lot of things
There's a shadow looming over Breathing down my neck It won't let me forget It forces me to remember
I don't want to remember I just want my story to end