I'm just tired
I'm giving up
I want to go to bed
I wanna sleep forever
I'm just tired
I don't care anymore
But I'm not tired enough
I still act like I'm fine
And if people knew I would win an oscar
For acting so **** good
I mean it's ok
I celebrate in my head thinking everything will be fine but I just keep lying to my face
And I look in ther mirror and see this misery in my eyes.
Only you knew about my dreadful tears that I would shed and my awful thoughts that would come pouring in at night.
Im tired but not enough
I wanna sleep but I won't let myself
I wanna eat but I'll starve myself
You see that's me
I'll try to fix myself but find a way to break me.
As I said im a great actress.
Im so great that I forget that I am hurting myself every **** day just because I wanna win the oscar.
I will continuously try my very hardest to win the oscar.  I will always try my hardest to keep my mask as clean and prefer as possibly.
Im just tired but I'm not tired enough.