I wish you were there and you weren't
And I wish and wished for what I wanted but I never got it
It's not funny at all how things can be unfair
But we're taught that's just how things are

It's not the spilt milk that once was worth crying over
It's the heartache after heartache that has us closer to the edge
I can see it now
One big leap and we'll be there
And the fear doesn't creep up and scare me anymore
Because now I welcome it unlike before
To sweep me away from this terrible fright of a life
Because I don't want to be alone anymore

I tried you know
To pick myself up and walk it off
But I only headed towards the cliff
And then nobody liked me walking it off
And told me to **** it up
So I did

I ****** through a straw a bottle of bleach to go with the pills
But sadly not even that helped at all
So they tied me down in a room with four walls
Not a window to brighten the view
To stick me with needles and feed me through a tube
After that I knew
Nobody cares what I think. Just what I do.